This is getting to be a very interesting journey! After spending most of Saturday and a good portion of Sunday in the hospital, now comes the parts where you meet doctors, nurses, technicians. You go through "pre-op" instructions, more information given out. The whole Mercy system is set up by computer now, and if you have any kind of record in there, it is ALL in there. Kind of interesting really. I think they call it "one patient, one record". I feel like big brother is looking over my shoulder. LOL But even with all this high tech stuff, they still get things wrong, so it all has to be re-verified. I went thru that part this morning. Had to talk to the anesthesiologist where he gave me some very strict orders of what to do an not do the days before the biopsy, and even the morning of. Not even a glass of water. UGH
I guess Im writing this today just to update things, and like I said previously it tends to be theraputic for me to write down my feelings, emotions, etc. What is really strange, my head says one thing, my heart says another, and my being wants to just run an hide and make it all go away. (reverting to a 5 year old) LOL
What I do know is this, and sorry if any of my non believing friends dont get it, but what I do know is that when Jesus died on the cross, ALL of our sins were taken care of. ALL of our healing was taken care of. ALL of our needs were handled. When Jesus died, and said "It is Finished", He was telling his Heavenly Father that He had done what He was sent to earth for. We have that assurance and I have determined to stand on that promise.
Does that mean Im not afraid, or worried, no of course not, because I am. What I do know is that I have many people praying for me, and covering me with "their" faith, and Im standing on that. I know that I serve a very loving God who cares about me in every way. I know that if He cares about the birds of the air, then how much more does he care about me? I think quite a bit.
I do have a Doctor consultation this Friday, and we will chat and I will be told what the exact procedure will be, what recovery will be like, etc. Ive been told that the procedure will ONLY be for the biopsy, which is good, that is one less thing I need to worry about. The actual procedure is scheduled for Saturday February 11, so until then, nothing to do but sit back and let God continue to work on me. Should be an interesting journey.
Until then - Im still believing in the best!
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Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Monday, January 30, 2012
LIFE AT 60 PART II
Just a very short update on things, and I HOPE you dont get bored with this. Im finding it very theraputic, so here goes.
Today I feel much better. Sore throat is basically gone, though some small residual is still there. I was really kinda down yesterday after having talked to my primary physician, and her thought that this was the big C word, but I refused to accept that. I then got to talk to the ENT and he said he was not so sure after having scoped the area.
I do have a Dr appointment with the head of the ENT department at St. Louis University, and that is on Friday. He has scheduled the biopsy for February 11, while that sounds like a long way off, I look at it as perhaps he does not feel it is all that serious and sees no sense of urgency in getting it done. If that is the case, I do feel much better, and that is where I like to feel! :) I guess I will know more of his feelings on Friday. :)
For all of my friends that have been praying, I cannot possibly thank you enough. Churches literally from the East Coast to the West Coast and places in between, and even the Philippines, have been praying. Im truly a blessed person, and am so humbled by this I cannot even begin to explain it.
If you are praying already, PLEASE keep it up, if you are not and are a praying person PLEASE start. I can feel God working on this, and I believe that when the biopsy is done there will be nothing for them to check.
Praise God for what HE has already done and what HE will be doing.
Today I feel much better. Sore throat is basically gone, though some small residual is still there. I was really kinda down yesterday after having talked to my primary physician, and her thought that this was the big C word, but I refused to accept that. I then got to talk to the ENT and he said he was not so sure after having scoped the area.
I do have a Dr appointment with the head of the ENT department at St. Louis University, and that is on Friday. He has scheduled the biopsy for February 11, while that sounds like a long way off, I look at it as perhaps he does not feel it is all that serious and sees no sense of urgency in getting it done. If that is the case, I do feel much better, and that is where I like to feel! :) I guess I will know more of his feelings on Friday. :)
For all of my friends that have been praying, I cannot possibly thank you enough. Churches literally from the East Coast to the West Coast and places in between, and even the Philippines, have been praying. Im truly a blessed person, and am so humbled by this I cannot even begin to explain it.
If you are praying already, PLEASE keep it up, if you are not and are a praying person PLEASE start. I can feel God working on this, and I believe that when the biopsy is done there will be nothing for them to check.
Praise God for what HE has already done and what HE will be doing.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
LIFE AT 60 OR GOOD NEWS BAD NEWS
What a title huh? Got kinda broadsided yesterday. I had been fighting a very raw sore throat for a couple of days, but yesterday it would not allow me to swallow. Considering that as humans we need to eat, drink, and swallow that is not a good thing, so I went to the ER. The not swallowing part concerned the docs enough that they ordered a CAT scan. No big deal, I thought. Quick, easy, and painless. (They do need to do something about that narrow hard tray you lay on though! LOL)
By this time I had been in the ER for several hours and was getting antsy, if you know me personally you understand that. Well the scan came back with some not so encouraging news. It showed a "mass" in the right side of my throat with also a necrotic lymph node.
What does all this wonderful news mean? Honestly right now, I dont know. I do know this, Im NOT accepting the C word, OR the M word unless and until the biopsy shows it. You see, I believe in a HEALING God. I believe that He is much more powerful than any kind of disease we may contract. After all, He made these earthly bodies, so it stands to reason He can heal them. Does He always heal, I believe yes, although sometimes that healing is in death, the ultimate healing, because at that point, if you are a born again believer, you will be with Him in heaven. A win win situation. Let me be VERY clear about this. Im believing for total healing HERE and NOW. I have a bucket list of things that are not done yet, and I believe that God wants to allow me to complete those. One of those items is a 100 mile bike ride, and I WILL do that soon, (got to wait for the weather). However should God choose to take me home, then so be it. He must have a reason for this.
Why am I so upbeat about all this? Well on the inside, I must confess, Im churning about all the "what if's" I will keep you updated on that end of things. I promise I will write every couple of days to keep everyone informed. It will be informative for you, but theraputic for me. This little episode will also force me to eat more healthy than I have for awhile. I will also post some great food ideas for you.
One interesting side note to all of this, is that the Dr's 1st questions to me was how long have you smoked? Well the answer to that is NEVER! Asked if I drink to excess and once again the answer was no. Seems those are the 2 biggest things that causes these types of issues. So how did I get whatever it is I have? Who knows, sometimes it just happens.
This is a time of testing, and I pray that Im up to it. If you want to think of God as a type of blacksmith, or forger, steel hardens steel, so I must become more like steel. Not only mentally, but physically, and spiritually. For those of you who read this and who are prayers, keep me on your prayer list.
By this time I had been in the ER for several hours and was getting antsy, if you know me personally you understand that. Well the scan came back with some not so encouraging news. It showed a "mass" in the right side of my throat with also a necrotic lymph node.
What does all this wonderful news mean? Honestly right now, I dont know. I do know this, Im NOT accepting the C word, OR the M word unless and until the biopsy shows it. You see, I believe in a HEALING God. I believe that He is much more powerful than any kind of disease we may contract. After all, He made these earthly bodies, so it stands to reason He can heal them. Does He always heal, I believe yes, although sometimes that healing is in death, the ultimate healing, because at that point, if you are a born again believer, you will be with Him in heaven. A win win situation. Let me be VERY clear about this. Im believing for total healing HERE and NOW. I have a bucket list of things that are not done yet, and I believe that God wants to allow me to complete those. One of those items is a 100 mile bike ride, and I WILL do that soon, (got to wait for the weather). However should God choose to take me home, then so be it. He must have a reason for this.
Why am I so upbeat about all this? Well on the inside, I must confess, Im churning about all the "what if's" I will keep you updated on that end of things. I promise I will write every couple of days to keep everyone informed. It will be informative for you, but theraputic for me. This little episode will also force me to eat more healthy than I have for awhile. I will also post some great food ideas for you.
One interesting side note to all of this, is that the Dr's 1st questions to me was how long have you smoked? Well the answer to that is NEVER! Asked if I drink to excess and once again the answer was no. Seems those are the 2 biggest things that causes these types of issues. So how did I get whatever it is I have? Who knows, sometimes it just happens.
This is a time of testing, and I pray that Im up to it. If you want to think of God as a type of blacksmith, or forger, steel hardens steel, so I must become more like steel. Not only mentally, but physically, and spiritually. For those of you who read this and who are prayers, keep me on your prayer list.
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