The other day I wrote a blog about All In, well this is part II. Sometimes you just have to write what God wants you to write, WHEN He wants you to write it. Sometimes its really hard to stay All IN, then again what choice do we really have?
Lately most of my blogs have been about this blasted disease I have and treatments, and whats going on, well not changing that today. :) On Wednesday, I had the PET scan, and they dont lie, not sure if that is a good thing or bad, but the rollercoaster ride they take you on, are cruel and unusual punishment! LOL
Well the rubber is meeting the road sooner than later. Oh yeah Ive been getting the chemo junk and honestly Ive been laughing at it, and will likely continue to do so, because as the Apostle Paul said it best, to live is Christ, which is a good thing, but to DIE IS GAIN! In other words either way it turns out, its a WIN/WIN deal. Do I want to die?, not really, but man the thought of meeting Jesus is really appealing. You know we have this built in desire to win, to not give up, to LIVE! After all, I have 2 grandsons, a daughter, son in law, and of course the ever lovely wife Renita. So you see why its so hard to just give up and die? I never figured this out till now, and Im really not sure I have it figured out. Actually I DONT have it figured out, except that God does what HE does and its up to us to follow HIM!
I am going to try acupuncture and see what that does. Ive been told that there is good things happening with that treatment. In the meantime chemo will continue, along with bi-weekly blood draws. Honestly I think the Dr has come to the end of thinking he can be of help. I KNOW where the real help is coming from and that is thru Jesus blood. ALL the tests, ALL the opinions, give us the facts and the truth, but that leads us in which direction to pray
SO! Lets all pray that God will kick cancer of all kinds to the curb!
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Friday, April 26, 2019
Wednesday, April 17, 2019
LIFE AT 67 - ALL IN!
As promised here is whats going on in my life today and the last few.
ALL IN! What does that mean to you? If anyone reading this goes to St Louis Family Church, you know because its what we are about. If you are reading this for the first time, you might not get where Im going with this. I will give you MY feelings on what ALL IN means to me.
When you are dealing with a deadly disease, and you have only heard negative thoughts from the doctors you are dealing with, its hard to stay positive. In fact sometimes its darn near impossible. To give you an example, the last few days has been hard. TONS of pain, and honestly I "thought" I was going to die. Im ready to die, but really dont want to, I have "work" in my opinion that needs to be accomplished. I have 2 grandchildren that possibly sometime in the future might need me, and most of all, I want to see people find Jesus. I believe we are likely in the very last days and there is very little time to reach people.
So what does All In mean to you? Long story short, Give everything you have, make yourself ALL IN for the glory of Jesus. Dont be afraid to speak out for the power of Jesus. Im all in for Jesus and HIS power. When you have what doctors call a terminal disease you NEED to be all in. When Dr's dont give you a chance in you know where, you NEED to be all in. Even when some friends and family treat you like Job, and wonder why you can have the faith to be "ALL IN", YOU must be all in.
I have no idea how long I will live. It could be a day or two, or it could be 20-30 more years. God is the only person that knows.
Be all in for this time. For such a time as this! You must be all in.
Getting back to the original thought, I had a PET scan today, I have no results at this time, probably tomorrow. As of last week, the numbers were pretty much going the right direction. I still need prayer for a lot of things. Im dizzy a lot, NO COMMENTS from the peanut gallery, my platelets, white blood cells, and red blood cells need to come up. The cancer marker, CA19-9 needs to keep going DOWN! That is the big number that we need to get below 36. Right now its 548, and it started out at 1217. So Ive given all I know at this point, and I hope that my praying friends will continue to pray.
I love all of you and am thankful for each of you.
ALL IN! What does that mean to you? If anyone reading this goes to St Louis Family Church, you know because its what we are about. If you are reading this for the first time, you might not get where Im going with this. I will give you MY feelings on what ALL IN means to me.
When you are dealing with a deadly disease, and you have only heard negative thoughts from the doctors you are dealing with, its hard to stay positive. In fact sometimes its darn near impossible. To give you an example, the last few days has been hard. TONS of pain, and honestly I "thought" I was going to die. Im ready to die, but really dont want to, I have "work" in my opinion that needs to be accomplished. I have 2 grandchildren that possibly sometime in the future might need me, and most of all, I want to see people find Jesus. I believe we are likely in the very last days and there is very little time to reach people.
So what does All In mean to you? Long story short, Give everything you have, make yourself ALL IN for the glory of Jesus. Dont be afraid to speak out for the power of Jesus. Im all in for Jesus and HIS power. When you have what doctors call a terminal disease you NEED to be all in. When Dr's dont give you a chance in you know where, you NEED to be all in. Even when some friends and family treat you like Job, and wonder why you can have the faith to be "ALL IN", YOU must be all in.
I have no idea how long I will live. It could be a day or two, or it could be 20-30 more years. God is the only person that knows.
Be all in for this time. For such a time as this! You must be all in.
Getting back to the original thought, I had a PET scan today, I have no results at this time, probably tomorrow. As of last week, the numbers were pretty much going the right direction. I still need prayer for a lot of things. Im dizzy a lot, NO COMMENTS from the peanut gallery, my platelets, white blood cells, and red blood cells need to come up. The cancer marker, CA19-9 needs to keep going DOWN! That is the big number that we need to get below 36. Right now its 548, and it started out at 1217. So Ive given all I know at this point, and I hope that my praying friends will continue to pray.
I love all of you and am thankful for each of you.
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