LIFE AT 60 - BOX 256

Well let me start by saying that this is probably a bit different than the other blogs I have written.  I'll get to the title later.  1st, let me go over a few things.  If you recall, I talked about trying some different things to counteract the effects of the Neulasta shot.  THOSE seem to be working.  We waited an extra day, started Claritin, and Motrin.  Not sure if all or one things has helped but it has.  Pretty much no pain from it.  PRAISE GOD for that!!!  2nd of all once again pretty much no ill effects from the chemo, with the exception of fatigue!  That seems to be a very common thing and while frustrating, if that is the worst, I can deal with that.  LOL  In addition, I sang with the Easter Choir on Friday night and 2 services today.  WOW God is so good and merciful.  Absolutely no ill effects from singing.  Amazing what God will do when you praise him.  My voice, while in my body, belongs to God and I will praise Him with it.

OK now to the title of this blog.  I will admit that it is really strange, and honestly not one I would have picked, but you see, I did not pick it.  God did!  After a rather fitful sleep last night, this whole writing was given to me.  I know that someone out there beside me, needs to read this.  God dealt very specifically with me and was specific that I should be writing this with this title.  Often times when I think of something in the middle of the night, I dont remember much the next morning.  This time is the exception to that.

I have no idea why the number 256 is important, except to say that it is apparently my number.  You see we all have "boxes" in our lives where we keep "things".  Be they good, bad, or indifferent.  We have areas categorized, it is just how our brains work.  Often times we bury things deep in our memory and just forget it.  However, I believe that God is wanting to move in lives and wants our complete attention. He wants us to know him in a much deeper way and with a deeper commitment.  Please forgive me if this sounds too "preachy" or something that offends, Im just giving what I got.  :)

Lets look at this for a minute.  While we all have these boxes and we have buried them in the deep recesses of our minds, we KNOW what they contain.  Like I said, could be things we have done that were not quite right, things we said that offended or hurt, could even be some good things but we just put it away because it was part of a hurt.  I know in my case this box has a lot of things I would really just as soon not remember.  While God told me that I dont have to open this box, I do have to throw it away.  What is past is past!  THANK YOU JESUS for the mercy and grace he gives us.  Ive heard Pastors, and visiting speakers talk about "imagining" that you are throwing a hurt away, and letting God take it on himself.  I've heard Pastors talk about imagining "nailing" something to the cross, especially at this time of year.  While all of these are good ideas, what Im talking about takes all those ideas to a much higher level.  This is a level of trust that goes so far beyond that.  This takes us to a level of trust in God that He is wanting from us.

Like I said, I dont know why my "box" is 256.  Maybe it just happens to be in that part of my brain.  I just know that it is there and that the secrets it contains belongs to God.  Yours might be 75, or 100 or any number or it might not even have a number.  Like I said, all of us has this hidden box.  You do not have to open it and find all those hurts again.  What you have to do is just turn them over to God and let his mercy cover them.  Let God have that box,you dont need it anyway.  It is just there cluttering up the space.  :)  I know that what God has put in the past is past, and we have to move on from this day and keep God in the forefront of out lives and let Him lead us.  I know that for some of you out there that might know know Jesus in a personal way, what Im saying is probably very strange, but trust me, it is very real, and should you want to know more about Jesus, I would be happy to tell you more.