You might wonder why the title. I'll hit on that in a bit. Im actually sitting in the so called comfortable chair, which it really is compared to what Renita is sitting in! HA HA. At least this one reclines should I so choose. LOL I've been hooked up for about 45 min and I don't think they have even started the Ms Pac Man junk yet.
OK why did I choose the Ms Pac Man theme. Supposedly these chemicals only attack the bad cells. So Im naming them Ms Pac Man. (Ms because you really don't want to mess with a woman on a mission!) HA The Dr is very optimistic, and Im praying for him to have total wisdom in what he does. I firmly believe that God will use this treatment for the good of not only me, but others I come into contact with. For those of you who are reading this and have no idea what Im talking about, Ms Pac Man was one of the 1st electronic games, kinda like a very early X-Box. It came out after her "husband" Pac Man. Hence the name Ms Pac Man. She was pink, and loved chomping down on the dots, in this case, c cells. All they were were snapping jaws in a circle and you got points for all of the dots that were chomped. Sometimes you got a "power dot" and got more points. I figure that every cell she chomps down is a power cell and more points added today. :) Had some kinda funky electronic sounds to go with it, and when she would died, kind of spiraling sounds would come out of the box. Great fun.
Ms Pac Man is now chomping away, been in there now for about 20 min or so, still about an hour and 40 minutes to go. They have me hooked thru the port and THAT was a great thing to do. NO IV POKES!!!! One small stick, barely noticeable and boom, let the good drugs roll!! Anti nausea, then some benedryl, now the Ms Pac Man going in. GET those cells.
I will say that writing this during the treatment, is even more therapeutic than before. Keeps my mind off of what is actually happening, which is poison going into my veins. YUCK.
OK joke time. What did one cancer cell say to the other when chemo found them?? (play Jeopardy tune here) R A I D!!!!!!!!!! BOOOOOOM! Another way of showing my age, those commercials have not been on in years.
You know, God is totally with me, and I know that. Ive not been upset or nervous this whole time today. Renita is with me and will attest to that. Been able to chat with a couple of people. God is so good and merciful to me. Nurses all like the attitude. Seems like everyone is really cool and helpful. Im so blessed to have what I have, and have the ability to write about it. This day as far as this treatment goes will be over with shortly, about 1pm or so St. Louis time. Then I will go on about whatever business I have. I get to come back tomorrow for a shot to boost white blood cells. Here again God is so great. They signed me up for a drug co-pay to pay for it. It is a $6,000 shot. YES you read it right, $6,000 for ONE shot, and I get this shot 3 times. I have insurance and now the co pay so it costs me nothing. How awesome is that. The bills have started and once again, we are totally blessed in that we have insurance thru Renita's work, and for the 1st time in my history, we have reached our total deductible. Bills are in excess of $20K and we are just starting. God is in control, and knows this all in advance. He will NOT give us more than we can bear or handle at anytime. Im so very thankful for my friends and family and family includes all my church "family" that is praying for me during all this time.
The journey continues, and so far it is a not bad journey. Im discovering some new truths in Gods word. Things that I knew all along, but for one reason or another, never paid attention to. It is amazing to see the people God has placed in my path, and the path that HE has chosen to place me on. ALL of it for a reason. I know Im growing in this, and Im praying that these blogs are reaching people that I will likely never know about, unless they happen to write on my comment site. These times will likely be a bit trying. IF they do the full radiation treatment after the chemo is done, then around my birthday, June 12, I should be good to go. Got news for them, Im good to go now.
It is supposed to be around 80 here today, and assuming Im not grogged out by the drugs, Im going for a bicycle ride later. It might now be 20+, but Im going riding till Im tired. Im guessing I can get at least 10 in. For those of you who know me you know what I like doing is bike riding, for those of you who dont know me, probably think Im nuts. It is great exercise and fun to boot. Im going to get my friend Tom Drennan to train with me so I can do a "century" ride this year. You guessed it, a century is just what you might think, 100 miles!
Well I have a little time left on the plug in here, about an hour and 15 min or so. Guess I will wrap this up, just wanted to give you an blow by blow during the chemo start. All in all, not a bad thing. Think the benedryl gave me a bit of a headache, but that is not all bad. They did tell me I cant have more than ONE small margarita a week till this is done, because my liver might not be too happy with me. Maybe a NO alcohol would work, but them, whats the point?? LOL
Have an awesome day everyone. Keep the comments coming, I love all of them, and they are encouraging to read. I hope and pray that what I write is also beneficial to you as well
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Mike you definitely are helping others and yourself with your blogs, your attitude and transparency I know will minister to people who are in situations like yours. Again I say my situation nothing like yours but you are ministering to me too as well as many others I know.Look at how your faith and trust in God has grown! It was always there but you are showing Him and His awesome magnificent power in and through what you are facing and going through, Our great Pastor said it's OK to have a problem but it's not OK to stay there - that's now what Jesus wants for us. You my friend are showing a great example of that., so blessed to have you in my life.
ReplyDeleteTHANKS Debbie. Im just writing from my heart, and what God seems to be putting there. I do so much hope that what I say and do ministers to others. Ive definitely been blessed and I know that now more than ever. God is in total control of this, and I know that it will all have a great outcome.
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