LIFE AT 60 - BE A DREAM MAKER

Well today was supposed to be a day for treatment #3.  As it turns out my blood platelets were too low for the chemo so we are waiting another week.  :(  Kinda bummed, but it is what it is.  It is hard to get psyched up, then find out they are not going to do the treatment.  The also pushes back the end game.  I will now have a PET scan on the 14th of May instead of the 7th, and radiation wont start till the week of the 21st.  That pushes the end of this surreal journey to sometime in July.  NOT what I planned, but I should have known that it is NOT about my plans but Gods.  Ive known this from the very beginning, but sometimes we just like to plan things our way.  (Here is the place for the "Gibb's head slap!)  LOL  I just "think" I have too much to do to be bound by a "treatment" schedule.  I should know better!  Guess I just need a bit more patience!

Im actually feeling really good, just down a bit mentally.  I guess this 4th week will be a blessing in disguise as I will undoubtably feel even better.  I just wish the cooler weather and rain was not in the forecast!  :)  Someone told me a bit ago, that Gods timing is really all that counts, so we will go with that.  For those who have not seen me lately, you might not recognize me.  NO hair.  NO mustache.  Been told I look much younger.  So with that thought in mind, I dont care if the hair comes back or not.  LOL  ONLY one problem, my head gets COLD!  We like to keep our bedroom cool at night, usually with the window open, so Renita found me a light weight skull cap to use at night.  It is actually for bikers to wear in the cooler weather under their helmets, but it works perfect for keeping my head warm.  LOVE it!

I actually have borrowed this title from something I saw the other day.  Be a DREAM MAKER, not a DREAM BREAKER!  What does that mean.  Well, Ive been on both sides of this thought.  Ive tried most all the time to be an encourager, or a "Dream Maker", but sometimes I fail and become a "Dream Breaker".  A Dream Maker is someone who encourages, who allows someone to realize their dreams.  Who makes it possible for people to succeed, and encourages them along the way to follow that dream.  Someone who allows God to show them the way to help others.  How often have all of us done things "our" thinking we were doing the right thing, but it did not work out that way.  We became "Dream Breakers"  A Dream Breaker is someone who is negative most of the time, does not allow someone to realize their dreams, and when they hear about someones dreams, the do everything they can to NOT allow them to become reality.  How many times have any of us done that.  I know I have.  Maybe not intentionally, but we are having a bad day, and it just comes out!  All those negative thoughts just explode out of your mouth and before you can stop it, you have shattered someones feelings.  OH MY, I shudder to think about how many times Ive done that.  In fact I used to pride myself of being able to really "tell someone off", man how I wish I could take some of that back.  You can NEVER take back words like that.  It is like trying to un-ring a bell, cant be done.  THANKFULLY we have God to forgive us and help us make things right, and to help us along the way so we hopefully wont go that direction again.

I encourage you to really think of the consequences of your tongue.  It is often times just plain embarrassing to hear yourself.  :)  PLEASE keep in mind, Im talking about myself here.

Remember be a DREAM MAKER.  Encourage someone today.  Even if it is just a friendly HI going into or out of a store to a stranger.  Send an email to someone who has been on your mind.  Send a friendly Face Book post to someone you have not seen or heard from in some time.  You never know who you might touch in THEIR time of need.  That friendly HI, might be all they need to keep them going for the day or week.  Its amazing the little things that God can use.  Stay encouraged yourself.  Remember that God loves you, and CARES about you.  For those of you who do not believe that, think about this.  If he cares about the birds of the air, how much more would he care for you?  TONS!  Just remember that, when you get down.  I had to remember that today, even as I was writing this, I had to remember that God loves me and cares for me, and so what if the treatment goes into July, its just a few weeks later.  NO big deal.  We will go on vacation in the fall.  I was reminded the other day that an installation Ive been waiting to hear about is delayed and that delay may well be so I can be able to do it.  (IF that is the case I feel bad because their job is delayed.  :))  God's way is not always our way, but it is ALWAYS the perfect way!