LIFE AT 60 - PET SCAN DAY!

As I sit here writing this, my mind is both tired and still running in a hundred different directions.  As I said in the last blog, this will be a journey, good or bad.  Im probably more confident today than Ive been all along that this is all going to be good news in the end.  I still have the biopsy on Saturday morning to go thru, but Im still believing that that will come back negative as well.

Getting back to today.  Before they put me on this tiny table, the needed to check blood sugar, then inject me with some radioactive sugar!  YUM.  Unfortunately they had to poke me 5 TIMES!!! OUCH.  But I was gracious and did not walk out!  (amazing for me)   For those of you who know me personally know that Im anything but a small person.  (LOL)  Imagine laying on a table that moves back and forth, but that table is only about 12" wide! HA, Then the person working it all says DONT MOVE!  yeah right.  To top it off they wrapped my arms so they would not dangle, so now I really cant move, and honestly had a bit of a hard time breathing at 1st.   About 45 min in total.  Well I did it and did not get sick from claustrophobia!

So what does one do while being strapped to a table that moves forward and backward, and not being allowed to move.  Well, besides letting my mind drift a bit, I started praying for all those who Ive seen lately that need prayer.  I also started just claiming this healing.  The Bible says we can do that, so I did.  Interesting enough, I started getting this "peace" about everything.  God is in control, and I just need to let HIM have it!  AHH but you see, I have a real issue with that.  Im a person that likes to think that I can "fix" most everything.  I have always been that way, I just want to do it myself.  But really, this is what Gods wants us to all know.  HE is in control.  HE loves us.  HE wants us to rely on Him for all our needs.  Faith is a difficult thing to really grasp at time, but yet so very simple. WHY cant we seem to grasp this?  Why do we waste so much time doing whatever, when we could just have an easier time of it, putting our needs in Gods hands.

Here is a simple example.  IF you look at this whole faith walk this way maybe it will simplify things.  Those of you who are parents, will understand.  God is our father.  Dad if you will.  He cares for us more than anything else.  There is nothing that He would not do for us.  It is all there for the asking.  So why is this such a hard thing to learn and do?  You know Im 60 years old, and I have been taught this my whole life, but because Im also HUMAN, I like to do it myself.  HOWEVER things like this have a way of grabbing your attention, and keeping it.

I have had the opportunity over the last few days to reflect on my spiritual walk as well as other parts of my life.  Have I been all that I could have been over the years.  Probably not.  But lets suppose that I chose to make different choices.  Where would I be?  I cant answer that.  I know that there is really something to the "6 degrees of separation" thing.  It seems like Im meeting people that I dont know but they know someone else that I do, so there is common ground for friendship. 

So what about this "healing thing" that I have been talking about?  Mark 11, 22-24 "Have faith in God.  Truly I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, Be taken up and cast into the sea, and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says is going to happen, it will be granted.  Therefore I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask, believe that you have received them and they will be granted you!"  WOW what a promise that is.  1 Peter 2:24 "and He Himself bore our sins in His body on the cross, so that we might die to sin and live to righteousness, for by His wounds you were healed."

It is on these promises that Im claiming my healing.   God said it, it's true!!