Well maybe the title says it all, but it does not really. The biopsy results came back today around 5pm EAST coast time, since that is where I am right now. They were not what I wanted or really expected. The words were a bit scary, but they were squamous cell cancer. WOW, I really said those words. However why not say them. It is what I was told and so now what do I do? Do I run and hide in the woods till this all passes. NOPE, I really dont like the woods, too many mosquitoes. LOL Besides this time of year it tends to be a bit chilly too. I remain strong and steadfast in the Lord. What else can I do? That is what this journey has been all about.
OK, now I know there are some naysayers in the crowd. You were just waiting for this thinking, OK what will he do when it comes back positive for cancer. Well dont be so fast on the trigger partner. Ive said all along that GOD is in total control of this, and that is where Im firmly planted. Am I happy, hardly! Am I mad at God, definitely NOT! God did not do this too me. Perhaps He may have allowed it, but Im quite confident that there is someone out there that needs to see this thing healed, or needs to hear about Gods love thru me.
Does this all mean that Im going to be Mr Positive throughout the process. Well I can't make total promises, but Im going to do my best and with Gods help, YES I will. I have literally 1000's praying for me, and if you are one of those people, PLEASE don't stop now! I need the prayers more than ever.
So what does all this news mean? Honestly I don't totally know just yet. Since it was so late today that I got the news, the Dr office wont contact the "treatment" people till Monday. Im out of town till the 27th or so, so I cant do much till then anyway. I do know that there will probably be radiation treatments 5 days a week for 4-6 weeks. Whether there is anything more radical I do not know. Im praying NOT. Im in this for the fight, and I know I have a HUGE advantage by having God on my side. Im not looking for bad stuff to happen because I know my God is a healer, but He is also the lifter of my head, and my supporter. He is kinda like a big brother that goes into a fight 1st for your and clears the way. THAT is what MY God can do. Im believing that there is someone in the hospital or radiation area, or maybe just someone that will cross my path that needs to hear this story. Remember the last blog, the word WILLING! Im willing to do whatever God wants me to do. Im not sure I have ever been in that position before. Like I said before, sometimes I can be rather selfish, but now, Im all in, and ready to see what God has in store. Ive been told that the radiation treatments can be brutal, Im praying for extra tolerance of pain, and praying that it wont be that bad. Am I naive? I dont think so. Im a believer and that is where Im standing.
Remember I have written 10 blogs before this one about this journey. I have not waivered one bit, and Im not going to start now.
I was so very fortunate tonight in that I just "happened" to have my daughter, her hubby, my wife, all together with me when I got the news. I did not have to make a very difficult phone call to her, and she was able to hear it 1st hand and we could talk face to face. You think God is not kind and merciful. HA, He knew we would all need each other, and this time and this place was HIS choosing.
Like I said earlier, if you are praying for me, please KEEP IT UP! If you are not and you are a praying person, please start, (Ive become a prayer glutton!) :) I love getting prayed for, but interesting enough, Ive started praying MORE for others. Im believing in healing for several friends now, and will continue to pray for them while Im going thru whatever it is I end up going thru. My prayer is this. If you are one of my friends, or even someone I dont know, and you dont know Jesus, I pray that you will find him thru what Im going thru. It is all good, and I know that He will be by my side in everything I do.
THANKS too all who read this
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Hey Mike. We will continue praying the prayer of faith for total healing, in Jesus Name. The healing power of God is in your body Right Now!
ReplyDeleteTHANKS Jim. I so appreciate those words of encouragement. I KNOW that God is healing and I can feel the power of the prayers directed to heaven on my behalf. Im so humbled at the work God is doing in my life. Changes that I have "wanted" but was not "willing" to do, God is now doing because He has my total attention. I guess I wanted those changes to just change me overnight or "instantly" You know we as humans want everything NOW. LOL, well Gods plans are rarely our plans, or at least not the way we envision them.
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God will see you through this. You know I'm praying for you and am so very blown away at the strength you are drawing from Him, He will see you through this and your positive attitude and willingness to let Him work though you is even ministering to me and I am not going through what you are but your faith and trust in Our Wonderful God makes mine stronger and I see Him working in and through you in the last few weeks. I agree with Jim the healing power of God in in your body working right now! Thank you Lord for your healing power and the wonderful testimony Mike is going to have. Count on me to stand in agreement with you in and through this with you my friend.
ReplyDeleteDebbie, You KNOW where I stand. You in fact told me in the very beginning that my faith would be built from the faith of others, and that has been true. Im willing for God to work thru me. I just want to do HIS will not mine. I know that His timing is rarely ours, and I know that His idea of healing may not be mine, but I have already been touched by his power and am believing that He will continue to heal. I just feel so humbled and blessed and so blown away by Gods love, and mercy and compassion.
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Mike - I am running in the LiveStrong Half Marathon tomorrow morning in Austin TX and I will run with your name on my back. I plan to "carry" the fight for cancer with me. Your name will be the only one on my back that is still fighting - the others have lost their battle and I will stand with you and believe for a quick healing and recovery process - in HIS name. After 13.1 miles of the race tomorrow, I will have Katie take a picture of your name and I will post it and tag you. I will be wearing my bright yellow LiveStrong jersey too!! STAY STRONG and STEADFAST.
ReplyDeleteMark, THANKS so much for your thoughtfulness! Ive been truly humbled by all of this "attention" if you will, that people have bestowed on me. I have never been humbled like this before, and perhaps that is one reason that God is directing me thru this process. God is teaching me so much. I feel so blessed, and so loved by people, some that I have never even met. To know that I have people praying for me that I have never met, only because they were asked to pray is incredible. To have friends care enough to put my name on a running jersey, means so much, THANKS!! I know that God is going to heal me, and no matter the outcome, God will get all the praise and glory.
DeleteDear Mike: My name is Tammy Clark and my husband is Greg Clark. I believe you know the battle that Greg (and I) are fighting right now. He has been on the waiting list now for 15 months and there are times that both Greg and I have found ourselves wondering where God is.. But we don't allow that to last too long, we realize we are thankful how well Greg is doing otherwise. He has been on disability since May 2011 and has a home health nurse that comes every Monday to check his stats. We were just at his heart failure doctor this last Thursday, and he is very happy with how well Greg is doing; the rest of his organs are functioning "perfectly" and he just keeps telling us that his body is just waiting for the perfect heart for him to become available. He is type O blood, thus that is the only type heart his body will accept, plus it has to be "big" enough to fit a 6'5" man. This is a bittersweet battle, however, in the fact that someone else has to lose their life tragically for Greg to continue living his. But we know He has this all under control; much better than we do!! I just wish more people were educated on the importance of donating their organs. Well, enough about us, Mike, I don't need to tell you to be strong ~ you are filled with the perfect strength of our God Almighty. Take care; we will be praying for you, and we will stay up-to-date with your good reports!
ReplyDeleteTammy, stand firm in the promises of God. Ive known Greg since we were both kids, and I was sad when I learned of his heart problems. God is all powerful, and in those times when you are wondering where God is in all this, stand firm, and tell those demons to depart, THEY have NO power over you. Greg is God's child and as such, God cares for him deeply. (an you too of course). There is a perfect heart out there. Yes it is bittersweet because someone will have to die, but God has this under control. His timing is rarely ever our timing, but it is PERFECT timing. Be still and know that I am God, is not just a nice thing to say, it is truth. I know that it is extremely hard to be still most of the time. We as humans want to "fix" things, instead of letting God do his perfect plan. (I know that is one of my biggest issues) LOL I think that is why God is taking me on this journey. To show me HIS greatness, and HIS love for me. He has wanted this out of me for many years, and Im FINALLY willing to turn things over to Him, and believe me, it makes life so much easier. The perfect example was the other evening when I got the news that it was for sure the C word, I did not throw the phone, I literally had a peace that it was still going to be OK, then today got some good news, and it just made another day easier to deal with.
DeleteIm sure that Greg will get a heart and that it will be in GODS timing. Rest on His promises.
Blessings to you, guys and rest assured that I will be praying for him daily. God is a mighty God and our "daddy".
There are as Pastor Jeff say and inexhaustible supply of the Grace of God. There is no such thing as coincidence that test was taken to be used to show your positive attitude and trust in Him that will see you through this. Glory to God! Standing with you Mike God is so very good as you well know, timing is not what we think as you know with me and my situation, There is now way anyone will be able to see what He's going to do in and through you "that is God"! Continuing to cover you in in prayer as you rest in Him and His promises. Yes and Amen.
DeleteDebbie, there is indeed an inexhaustible supply of Grace. We just need to learn to tap into it. It is there for the taking and He is willing to give it, but somehow we just miss the mark and cant quite grasp the idea of Gods grace. I KNOW that He has shown me way more grace than I deserve, but Im finally ready to take it, and lean on his strong arms. They are much much stronger than mine, and Im totally helpless in this situation. I cannot heal myself, I cant do anything about it, except rely on Gods grace and mercy. Im believing for total and complete healing. Im not going to look at any more links on the net about what I have, because for the most part they are negative, and really hard to understand anyway!!! LOL I know that God loves me and what He wants is what I want. Im just taking it all one day at a time, and trying to rest in HIS arms.
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